Judgement?
So, I am the weak one? Although, I am not the one with a failed marriage (I have proposed twice in my life, without much luck)?
I did, as may be know or not know, not part voluntarily from my loved one? However, I did not make any false promises to God or other entity? As is often the case it would seem. “In love and death…”
And now? The judgement falls upon me? But, death is hardly a voluntary choice or is it? Am I mistaken (again)? The complete failure will never be mine. The inability, is not mine either and it never will be… ever. And I have living proof talking to me every day.
Honestly, a full two decades later? Is it not strange that you need an external source to justify your own life? So, many years later? That was not my intention, I must confess that it was my suscpicion (a huge misstake). Yet, I am the one in need of assistance? Really? No, I personally simply must contest that. For one thing most of us are parents now? Then, maybe some help is needed to understand the basics of how the World actually functions today?
Beyond the possible scope (unfortunately, the World does not really “look” or function like anyone would suspect or hope…). I am sorry; 2003, 2006 and now 2017? Things have changed a lot or no they have not really. 2021 or beyond? It will get worse. Judgement? That, can never be the basis of any friendship? Firstly, friends do not judge or can never have the urge to do so (that may very well be the very definition of friendship, being non-judgmental that is.). Feeling better now?
Furthermore, the act of “judgement” (in my mind) is a true sign of weakness. Only the weak seek the judgement of others as a means of justifying their own beliefs or desiers through the other. But that is just me.
It will not work unless the “other” recognises being judged though and that is if the judgement is going to be passed? And if that is the case the judgement should be passed by an equal? Is that really the case? Equal? You may not cast judgement over me or my actions. I try really hard not do so.
I will never tell. I really do not approve because integrity and loyalty go before anything else in my World. And I will never break Codex, ever. What happened to that principle?
Whatever anyone chooses to do? Frankly, I don’t care. Each and everyone is uniquely responsible for their own actions. Is that simple enough? The crying, screaming and all the fuss? It is not dignified. Life is complex, you all should have figured that out by now (I assumed you all had) it is not “Lala”, “Plastic-fantastic” or “Barbie-land”…
Finally, do I feel sorry for myself? No, not really. If I would feel “sorry” for anyone it would be for humanity. As a “parent” that would be the obvious concern or? Maybe… not? Given that you are a parent.
I must give massive thanks nevertheless. All I wanted to know was to know with a degree of certainty and now I know with absolute certainty. And I do give a million thanks for that!